A quote from my book about the Gospel

From my book:

I was repeatedly put in silly situations like this. I was at the lowest rank in a church organization. They would not only allow me to preach, but they did not even speak to me. The pastor was despising me. So I found no chance of how I could call them (both the pastor and others) to the true faith and repentance and save them. And all what could be enough to change all this—to be respected by the pastor, allowed to preach, and take a high position—would be to have sex with the wife of the pastor (which has offered it to me). I was completely messed in mind, thinking about situations like this, supposing I would do this (I have not). But if I would, what would it be? A kind of prostitution. Then who would I be after this? I would be an apostle prostitute. (I was called to be a missionary in Africa as I will describe below, so I call myself an apostle.) Yes, there was a reason in not doing this. It is that I was simply not able to analyze this situation. I have been somehow able to analyze apostles and prostitutes, but I would not be able to analyze anything about anyone both apostle and prostitute. An airplane may crash because of a damage or fuel going out. But it may also crash by the other reason, lost orientation (where I am); this would be lost orientation and so also a crash.

Or another example on the same topic: I was dying of hunger. I was bringing to coffin my math discovery worth trillions of dollars. Isn’t there a simple solution: marry a “wrong” girl with money? I was popular among women, it would be possible to do. After all what is more important: not to sleep with a girl I don’t like or give the world a few trillions dollars (what could maybe enhance all areas of living including dating sites and the possibilities for men to sleep with women they like)? I was stopped to do this by a contradiction in my mind: not understanding what the Gospel means by “marriage”, “prostitution”, “generosity”, “greediness”. The same about to become a thief to earn a trillion for the world. No way to understand what is to be a thief and prostitute Gospel follower.

Why God allowed me to fall?

As I describe in this book and this blog post, I was transformed into a superman with computer brain during about a month.

Why has God allowed me to become a sinner like you again?

It seems now I know the answer:

Sometimes a computer stop to do some useless calculations only when they overflow its entire memory. It may be an attempt to solve a problem not solvable in principle or a problem which would take say 10^100 years even for a powerful computer.

I tried to solve the problem how to live accordingly Gospel. Now I understand it is not really solvable (see also this book).

I would spend more time with the computer brain trying to solve it, than I spent being a sinner.

God wants us to solve our problems faster. So He in fact helped me.

Can Apocalypse be canceled?

Sometimes God says “a catestrophe will happen” but it does not happen. It is analogous as if one says “you owe me $10” then this does not make the lender obliged to request the money, he can cancel this whenever he wishes. God said through Jona that Ninevia will be destroyed but it wasn’t! No reason to assume that the same can’t happen with Apocalypse.

See my book End of Gospel and my blogs on how negative aspects of Apocalypse and the rest of Gospel can be canceled. It is worth to read that book even for the only reason to know how Apocalypse can be canceled.

About meaning of “salt” in Bible

Salt is the substance with chemical formula NaCl that it consists of Sodium and Chlorine. These two chemical elements are of almost opposite properties (the first is a very active metal and the second is a halogen).

Both are highly reactive and flammable, both are poisons. But when they are combined together they produce an “moderate” substance which we can even to eat in some quantities.

So Jesus speaking about salt meant composition of opposites which lead to a moderate outcome.

(Mark 9:50) “Salt is good, but if the salt has lost its saltiness, with what will you season it? Have salt in yourselves, and be at peace with one another.””

This means to hold seemingly contradictory radical concepts combined into a composite theological theory which makes them into one moderate philosophy leading to peace with one another.

See my book End of Gospel for some examples of such concepts.

Love is a simple thing

What is love? What the word “love” means in New Testament? These look like very difficult questions.

But the Greek word “agape” for “love” also means “charity”. So love is simply ability to do charity.

(1 Cor. 13)

1 If I speak with the languages of men and of angels, but don’t have love, I have become sounding brass, or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but don’t have love, I am nothing. 3 If I dole out all my goods to feed the poor, and if I give my body to be burned, but don’t have love, it profits me nothing.

In the past it was about me. I had faith, I was baptized by Spirit and fire and prayed in tongues, I knew more than most other people. I even wanted to help the poor. But I didn’t have charity.

I was seeking for ways to get money for my ministry. It was a business, business attempting to serve God, but not a charity.

I was heavily pressed by the contradiction that I need money for my ministry but should not be greedy.

I was divided between God’s commandments and between my desire to get money for my ministry by any means (such as cursing other people and making them to die because of my curse).

At last (quite hilariously) I tried to put my hope on conforming to the Russian law (I’m from Russia) about charitable organizations. I tried to make me conform to this law, because I saw no other way to overcome my “holy” greed.

I found myself a modern kind of a Pharisee.

But now thanks to End of Gospel teaching I am free from being a Pharisee and have charity in my heart. Read this book.

Why do we need commandments?

Introduction

Consider a 14 years old teenager. How should he make decisions related to sex?

He doesn’t yet know sex and love. He is inexperienced. He cannot make decisions based on his own knowledge or experience.

He need somebody or something to guide him.

A thing which can help him is biblical commandments.

If he would already know all about sex and all about its consequences (not even any adult knows all!) he would not need the commandments. He would not need the Bible.

Commandments are for these who don’t know something.

When we mature, we no more need some commandments. I, for example, don’t need that Bible would teach me not to marry an unbeliever. It is quite natural for me the knowledge that I can’t make a good family with an unbeliever. I know this in my inner man and don’t need that Bible would teach me this.

There are two extremes:

Extreme 1

Extreme 1 is to reject commandments altogether (as for example atheists do).

This way you could deny the wisdom of God and try to behave based only on your limited mind without help of God. This is not a good way.

Extreme 2

Extreme 2 is to scrutinize to follow every commandment you know whether you understand it or not.

This is also not a good way. We should live by knowledge and faith (and love!) not by particular commandments.

This way is to make Bible a law for you, rather than a guide. This is also not good.

This extreme is caused by not knowing limits of applying biblical covenants to our life and trying to follow them in every tiny bit aspect of our life.

Failure to reject the law

We may set our mind not to fall into the extreme 2. But trying to do this in my old religion, I failed.

My failure was this way:

I understood that I should follow the spirit of Gospel not the commandments.

But how do I know the spirit of Gospel if not by studying particular commandments? This way I found no other way to follow my understanding of Gospel as to follow every commandment as a law.

Certainly, this way I often violated more important commandments trying to follow every tiny bit of the law I made for myself from Gospel.

The teaching of End of Gospel

The solution is to reject following Gospel as a law altogether.

We cannot reject following commandments of Gospel as a law one-by-one, rather we need to reject living by a law altogether.

For this we need understand where are the limits of Gospel as a whole are and that we need to reject being in the so called New Covenant with God altogether. We should become free persons rather than law-followers slaves.

We become no more slaves of God in this new stage.

Read my book End of Gospel about this.

Vicious circle of comparing sins

In the past I lived in enmity with all people and in extreme poverty because:

I needed to understand how not to “betray” God. But to betray God is a thing as little as to once say “I am not of Christ” (or “I do not believe” or something). But this “little” thing looks like below other sins. On the other hand, we know that betraying God is a very big sin. So my reasoning fell into a vicious circle: When I compared different sins A and B I concluded both that A is greater than B and B is greater than A. This is a contradiction and messed my reasoning completely. Betraying God seemed “innocent” in this false “logic”. But then I had no proper reasoning of Christian economical responsibilities, as any work for profit looked as something worse than to betray God (because to betray God is a little thing), due a contradiction. (I didn’t know the exact criterion of a sin, so being “for profit” was the criterion which I “used” to determine if something is a sin, because I had no better criterion.) So I wasn’t able to get money or to reconcile with my enemies.

The only exit from this circle is to cancel the concept that I must follow every particular commandment of the covenant with God, but consider the covenant self-canceled and live only by its spirit not by letter anymore.

Read my free ebook.