A quote from my book about the Gospel

From my book:

I was repeatedly put in silly situations like this. I was at the lowest rank in a church organization. They would not only allow me to preach, but they did not even speak to me. The pastor was despising me. So I found no chance of how I could call them (both the pastor and others) to the true faith and repentance and save them. And all what could be enough to change all this—to be respected by the pastor, allowed to preach, and take a high position—would be to have sex with the wife of the pastor (which has offered it to me). I was completely messed in mind, thinking about situations like this, supposing I would do this (I have not). But if I would, what would it be? A kind of prostitution. Then who would I be after this? I would be an apostle prostitute. (I was called to be a missionary in Africa as I will describe below, so I call myself an apostle.) Yes, there was a reason in not doing this. It is that I was simply not able to analyze this situation. I have been somehow able to analyze apostles and prostitutes, but I would not be able to analyze anything about anyone both apostle and prostitute. An airplane may crash because of a damage or fuel going out. But it may also crash by the other reason, lost orientation (where I am); this would be lost orientation and so also a crash.

Or another example on the same topic: I was dying of hunger. I was bringing to coffin my math discovery worth trillions of dollars. Isn’t there a simple solution: marry a “wrong” girl with money? I was popular among women, it would be possible to do. After all what is more important: not to sleep with a girl I don’t like or give the world a few trillions dollars (what could maybe enhance all areas of living including dating sites and the possibilities for men to sleep with women they like)? I was stopped to do this by a contradiction in my mind: not understanding what the Gospel means by “marriage”, “prostitution”, “generosity”, “greediness”. The same about to become a thief to earn a trillion for the world. No way to understand what is to be a thief and prostitute Gospel follower.

Non-profit and non-pleasure

Love is the same word as charity in Greek. But charity in modern language is very near to “nonprofit” (=NGO). So love is nonprofit. What is common between love and nonprofit: It is as hard to honestly fit nonprofit registration purpose as hard to truly love. So nonprofit and love are essentially the same. Nonprofit is the external manifestation of love, to act not for money. But  pleasure is money inside us. (Money is a measure of good and pleasure is, too.) So inside us love is “non-pleasure” like non-profit? Does it mean that we like nonprofit not for money but to have as much money as possible (“nonprofits can have profit” is a common legal idiom) to be not for pleasure but to have as much pleasure as possible?

Which of the two variants will be in the heaven?

Bible clearly teaches that in the heaven there will be no such problems as hunger.

But why?

I think, there are two variants:

  1. The development in the future will be never stalled for advanced periods.
  2. The development will sometimes almost fully stall making the life locally useless, but the citizens of the heaven will not consider their uselessness during such periods as a reason to ignore “mundane” problems like possible hunger.

Please discuss which of the two variants (or both?) will be accomplished.

You should claim to a court to yourself

(Mat. 5:25-26) “25 Agree with your adversary quickly, whiles you are in the way with him; lest at any time the adversary deliver you to the judge, and the judge deliver you to the officer, and you be cast into prison. 26 Truly I say to you, You shall by no means come out there, till you have paid the uttermost farthing.”

(Luk. 12:57-59) “57 Yes, and why even of yourselves judge you not what is right? 58 When you go with your adversary to the magistrate, as you are in the way, give diligence that you may be delivered from him; lest he hale you to the judge, and the judge deliver you to the officer, and the officer cast you into prison. 59 I tell you, you shall not depart there, till you have paid the very last mite.”

This means that you should judge even of yourselves you not what is right, that is claim to a court on yourself that you did a wrong. Otherwise God will punish you much more harshly than a court.

Is the Gospel about the future?

It looks like that the Gospel is about the future by my interpretation of the following Bible fragment:

(Rom. 5:6-8) “6 For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. 7 For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. 8 But God commends his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.”

In the future people will be supermen.

But now we are yet without strength. We are yet sinners (our brains don’t work as proper computers).

Hebrews 6:5 also seems to hint that the word of God is about the future: (Heb. 6:5) “And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come”.

How hit by head may influence salvation?

Can a hardship deprive us of salvation? (Rom. 8:35-39) “35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 As it is written, For your sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. 37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. 38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, 39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

Suppose that a fall caused by hardships can deprive us of salvation. In this case a hit by head could deprive us of salvation even more.

I think, soul is a backup copy of the brain, just like as for our computers. Then a hit by head cannot damage the soul. If even hit by head cannot damage our position in the heaven, how less could loss of job, debts, etc. How less could becoming a homosexual because of hormonal damage?

So, now I think the reverse: A fall caused by hardships advances our position on the heaven. It is because of (Ps. 103:6) “The Lord makes righteousness and judgment to all who are offended,” (Psalm 146:7) “makes the judgment to the offended, giving bread to the hungry. The Lord permits the prisoners.” See here about how my offence caused me good.

One more question: Can a human lose his faith in Christ due to hit by head? If he loses, will he anyway go the heaven? Or will he be considered dead since the time of the hit and go to the heaven that time leaving a “zombie” on the Earth?

St. Paul considered himself dead. I also consider myself as a half-zombie, because my “spiritual” state was much better before the hits. I remind that Paul was also beaten by the head, no wonder he considered himself dead.

(Rom. 6:11) “Likewise reckon you also yourselves to be dead indeed to sin, but alive to God through Jesus Christ our Lord.”

Why God allowed me to fall?

As I describe in this book and this blog post, I was transformed into a superman with computer brain during about a month.

Why has God allowed me to become a sinner like you again?

It seems now I know the answer:

Sometimes a computer stop to do some useless calculations only when they overflow its entire memory. It may be an attempt to solve a problem not solvable in principle or a problem which would take say 10^100 years even for a powerful computer.

I tried to solve the problem how to live accordingly Gospel. Now I understand it is not really solvable (see also this book).

I would spend more time with the computer brain trying to solve it, than I spent being a sinner.

God wants us to solve our problems faster. So He in fact helped me.

Common salvation?

(Jud. 1) 2 Mercy to you, and peace, and love, be multiplied. 3 Beloved, when I gave all diligence to write to you of the common salvation, it was needful for me to write to you, and exhort you that you should earnestly contend for the faith which was once delivered to the saints. 4 For there are certain men crept in unawares, who were before of old ordained to this condemnation, ungodly men, turning the grace of our God into lasciviousness, and denying the only Lord God, and our Lord Jesus Christ. 5 I will therefore put you in remembrance, though you once knew this, how that the Lord, having saved the people out of the land of Egypt, afterward destroyed them that believed not. 6 And the angels which kept not their first estate, but left their own habitation, he has reserved in everlasting chains under darkness to the judgment of the great day. 7 Even as Sodom and Gomorrha, and the cities about them in like manner, giving themselves over to fornication, and going after strange flesh, are set forth for an example, suffering the vengeance of eternal fire.

“Common” in verse 3 can be literally translated “shared by all”. Does this mean that everybody will be saved?

What is to be saved, isn’t it preservation of the information in the brain forever? See this sermon for more details. Not knowing how to apply Bible, I will use science: Quantum mechanics teaches (among other) that no information in the universe is ever lost, that is having enough powerful measurement instruments and enough powerful computer one could be always able to reconstruct what was in the past from the future. If nothing is ever lost, then no information from our brain is lost. Does this science mean that everybody is saved?

Not quite. To be saved seems to mean not only not to be lost but to remain alive. The information lived in our brains needs to be preserved alive (continue the live).

The salvation is multiplication of mercy, peace, and love (verse 2). We need (verse 3) to be exhorted about low quality salvation. One may preserve life but live in eternal fire (verse 7).

So what being born again, born from above, and be saved really mean? I confess I don’t really know what it means. I just remind that you can be truly saved only by faith in Jesus Christ.