Pray for me, to get rid of negative thoughts

Many years ago (I probably was yet a teenager) I endured very hard life circumstances. It seems that something broke in my head with the following result:

I often have negative thoughts. It is often that I remember the rave I had before the conversion to Christ. Or just bad thoughts. Sometimes it is the thought to kill myself or somebody other, sometimes it is something indecent, or like this. I don’t kill or do any such things but the negative thoughts disturb me.

Please pray for me to get rid of negative thoughts and too often remembering the rave which I had before conversion.

I think, God allowed me to break a little because I thought too high about my own mind, such as being very positive was like an idol for me. But now I think, I already repented of this.

Also pray for my financial welfare for me to have money and free time to work in nonprofit/charity for benefit of others.


Bible on abortion

The following may look “not enough conservative”, but my purpose is to strictly follow the Bible:

(Job 3:16) “or as a hidden untimely birth I had not been, as infants who never saw light.”

Bible seems to say (if I understand it correctly) that unborn embryos do not have soul.

I do not say that abortion is good. I just try to make a biblical point on it.

Is killing an unborn embryos well a killing? I do not know, but it seems not to be sending a soul into separation of body, because there is no soul in this case.

The above is just my personal opinion and it may be wrong.

Love is a simple thing

What is love? What the word “love” means in New Testament? These look like very difficult questions.

But the Greek word “agape” for “love” also means “charity”. So love is simply ability to do charity.

(1 Cor. 13)

1 If I speak with the languages of men and of angels, but don’t have love, I have become sounding brass, or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but don’t have love, I am nothing. 3 If I dole out all my goods to feed the poor, and if I give my body to be burned, but don’t have love, it profits me nothing.

In the past it was about me. I had faith, I was baptized by Spirit and fire and prayed in tongues, I knew more than most other people. I even wanted to help the poor. But I didn’t have charity.

I was seeking for ways to get money for my ministry. It was a business, business attempting to serve God, but not a charity.

I was heavily pressed by the contradiction that I need money for my ministry but should not be greedy.

I was divided between God’s commandments and between my desire to get money for my ministry by any means (such as cursing other people and making them to die because of my curse).

At last (quite hilariously) I tried to put my hope on conforming to the Russian law (I’m from Russia) about charitable organizations. I tried to make me conform to this law, because I saw no other way to overcome my “holy” greed.

I found myself a modern kind of a Pharisee.

But now thanks to End of Gospel teaching I am free from being a Pharisee and have charity in my heart. Read this book.


What should we do?

Many preachers teach that for each deed we need first receive a revelation from God and not to do what God has not explicitly requested us to do.

But what God wants us to do?

(John 6)

28 They said therefore to him, “What must we do, that we may work the works of God?”
29 Jesus answered them, “This is the work of God, that you believe in him whom he has sent.”

There is no concrete deed we should do, but we should do anything and everything what conforms to the faith. The only good deed we can do is to believe. A deed with faith is good and a deed without faith is not good whatever we do.

(Heb. 11:6) “Without faith it is impossible to be well pleasing to him…”

(Heb. 6:1) “Therefore leaving the teaching of the first principles of Christ, let us press on to perfection—not laying again a foundation of repentance from dead works, of faith toward God…”

Our works are “dead”. This means that we sinners cannot do good by our deeds. Our psychic is too broken for us to do good deeds. But Christ opened us another way to serve God, we serve God by our faith.

Faith is implemented in deeds, however:

(Jam. 2)

20 But do you want to know, vain man, that faith apart from works is dead? 21 Wasn’t Abraham our father justified by works, in that he offered up Isaac his son on the altar? 22 You see that faith worked with his works, and by works faith was perfected; 23 and the Scripture was fulfilled which says, “Abraham believed God, and it was accounted to him as righteousness”;*x4 and he was called the friend of God. 24 You see then that by works, a man is justified, and not only by faith. 25 In the same way, wasn’t Rahab the prostitute also justified by works, in that she received the messengers, and sent them out another way? 26 For as the body apart from the spirit is dead, even so faith apart from works is dead.


(Ecc. 9:10) “Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might…”

We should do everything we can do, this verse teaches.

I do accordingly my faith math research, writing free software, and writing sermons like this one. These are important good deals of faith which change the world. Please support my good deeds with any sum of money.


Sun, stand still on Gibeon! You, moon, stop in the valley of Aijalon!

Joshua 10:12-13 says:

12 Then Joshua spoke to Yahweh in the day when Yahweh delivered up the Amorites before the children of Israel; and he said in the sight of Israel, “Sun, stand still on Gibeon! You, moon, stop in the valley of Aijalon!”
13 The sun stood still, and the moon stayed, until the nation had avenged themselves of their enemies. Isn’t this written in the book of Jashar? The sun stayed in the midst of the sky, and didn’t hurry to go down about a whole day. 14 There was no day like that before it or after it, that Yahweh listened to the voice of a man; for Yahweh fought for Israel.

This is the greatest miracle described in Bible. (“There was no day like that before it or after it, that Yahweh listened to the voice of a man.”)

I believe Bible, it has really happened, despite it is hard to believe, especially knowing modern science which looks to make it totally impossible.

But what is its “least miraculous” (and thus “most scientific”) explanation? I propose the following explanation:

A big alien spaceship with a giant solar sail came near to the Earth. What Israelites really saw was the reflection of the sun and the moon in the sail.

This looks improbable, but at least this is not totally impossible. I believe it has really happened in this way or another.


Why we need to believe to receive God’s promises

Why do we need to believe to receive God’s promises?

A promise is void if the person who promises knows, that the one to whom the promise is addressed won’t believe.

For example if I were pretending to be a madman who assumes to be much more rich than I am and I promised you 10 billion dollars in my imitated rave, then my promise to you is void because you would assume that I am a madman and thus I would not expect you to believe me.

In the same way, if you don’t believe a God’s promise in Bible, God has no obligation to fulfill this promise for you.

So to whom Bible is addressed? It is addressed to these who believe. If you don’t believe, the promise is not addressed to you.


How Baptists are different from Charismats?

How Baptists are different from Charismats?

Both pray for the same (here there is no difference). They pray for money, health, etc.

What is then the difference? The difference is that the Baptist does not believe that his or her prayers will be accomplished.